Liam turned my life upside down. Every little tiny feeling of self criticism, wondering if I am doing enough has come on so much stronger. It's no wonder when the kids are in bed I just want to sit on the couch with P and watch Roswell; improbable adventures and crushingly intense teenage love. It's the perfect escape. I remember sitting with the breast pump 2.5 years ago and watching Glee and meeting Becky for the first time. I cried. It was our anniversary.
I have obsessively read the DS forums, but now I am ready to connect with real moms, here in my community, different philosophies and all. I am now fb friends with them. I asked about supplements. One is doing a normal multi vitamin, same as her other kids. One just started dha and her son is nine. The other only mentioned keifer, which is an awesome probiotic boost. And here I am with my dha, probiotics, trying to work in the bright orange multi made specifically for the DS population. And still, with all I am doing, wondering if it's enough. Wondering about the online stuff I read about DS and green tea extract, curcumin, coenzyme something or another. Wondering how much what I do for my two year old will effect him when he is 20 or 40 or 60.
At work I have heard through the grapevine, and at home through our EI team, that there is a month old baby with DS in the county. Just waiting for them to contact us, they have been given our number at parents helping parents. Do they know I squealed with joy when I found out about them?
1/20/14
So this is going to be the year of "yeah me!" That's what I have decided. To celebrate all that I AM doing instead of wondering how much more I could be doing. That also includes a bit of self care.(what a concept!).
I'm just gonna jump in and get started. It's only 9:14 am and I noticed Liam had a runny nose so I gave him his oatmeal with chia and hemp seeds, honey and blueberries. And applesauce with probiotics, multivitamin, vitamin d, echinacea and elderberry syrup. (You may call me crazy for so many "add ins" or supplements, but that's ok. I think I'm doing good things here. ) and I have done one set of flashcards. So, yeah me!
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