Lupe

I don't know if I can wtite this without crying. Even if LIam were not in the nicu, I am mourning the end of an era with my Lupita. Of it being the two of us all week, our morning routine, the things we do. Lupe and mama.

And the thing is, she will never remember it. She is only 3. She will remember life as a hermana, a big sister. Why is it so hard for moms to see them grow up? Since she turned 3 I have seen such huge changes. It is beautiful but damn if it doesn't make me tear up. (are tears bad for the computer keyboard?)

She had one hard day when I came home from the hospital, but is doing pretty well now. Asides frm the fact that she hasn't gone to bed before 10:30 in 10 days and she only gets her siesta sometimes.

But she saw Liam's photo and said, OH, he's cute! And I heard her sayto her baby Lucia: Mama has to go to the hospital and take leche to Liam.

ok, enough emotional writing for one morning. off to take a shower and go to the hospital...