Two kids

I have been thinking about what I have learned in the two months since I have been the mom of two.  Yes, it is overwhelming. Yes, it gets easier.  Like so many things in life, it is often the anticipation of something new that is harder and scarier than the actual thing.
I thought I'd never see my baby leave the NICU, but he did.  I thought I'd never get the hang of leaving the house with both of them, but we do now.  I thought successful breastfeeding was a long way off, but at two months we are doing well.  I thought the dermatitis might last forever, but it is getting better.  I had no idea how I would put Lupe to bed with baby Liam around and needing me at the most inopportune moment, but we have figured it out.
I think the hardest thing at the beginning was that I mourned the loss of an era with Lupe, of it being just the two of us.  I was really sad.
Or maybe the hardest part was thinking I would never have me time again.
And having to say all the time, "I can do that with you later, when I'm not holding the baby".
I have one last thought: about books.  I have used books to help prepare Lupe for things like the dentist and preschool and potty training.  But when it comes to welcoming a new baby into the house, so many children's books had the older sibling going through some jealousy, or wanting to send the baby back to wherever he came from.  I know this happens, but.... why plant the idea in the kids head?  Get that book after your child shows some of those feelings, but not before.  I tried to keep it positive- The following photo has a couple books I liked.

It's been challenging for sure, but actually in many ways easier than expected.  Liam has had issues, but he is actually a very easy baby. Quiero mucho a mis hijitos, mis dos amores.